This is where to go if you need to talk to Admin, Doll, or the other NPCs. Be sure to write who each message is for in the subject line! For example, VIDEO | ADMIN or TEXT | DOLL!
They may not answer right away or at all, but you never know until you try!
[ no doll is PERFECT just as they are!! being a hot mess sometimes is part of Being Human and it's endearing... ]
[ the fact no one has asked makes him a little sad for Doll, but he can't say he's surprised. someone who can casually discuss being 'broken' and repaired and is more concerned with the implications it has for others-- and, well... from the forced distance Doll has to keep and the position they're in, it sadly makes sense. owies... his heartstrings... ]
Mm, that's okay. It's a simple question on its face, but when you think about, it can be pretty complicated, right? [ he chuckles softly ] I get that.
But if you were truly happy, I guess... you'd know, wouldn't you? If you have to ask, maybe... you're not there, just yet.
Then again this is also the person who cried over automatic friendship so...]
You don't get asked that question a lot yourself, do you Abel?
[Doll's voice is quiet, sympathetic. They're a couple of lonely people, aren't they. And there's a pause. Doll wants to be truthful, not give the answer he thinks Abel wants.]
[ ah. no; he doesn't think about his happiness much either, but then again, he doesn't deserve to. he wants to say a lot of things to that-- reassure them, but... it's quickly swept away by the next statement, which... just about... ]
I understand. [ and he thinks he does, at least in part; Doll's been made this way and for some reason, isn't allowed this basic, human thing. maybe it's some effort to strip them of that humanity and sense of self-- he hopes that's not the case, but the realist in him says otherwise.
[ let's just say Abel would NOT share his cute cat macarons with Doll's Master. NOT invited to the tea party. NOT getting a Christmas card this year. ]
I could! But...
[ some of the humor has found its way back into his voice. you can almost hear him lifting up his finger in a gesture to 'wait.' ]
When you're free, [ because you will be; he says it like it's a fact ] you'll choose it yourself. I have every faith it'll be the perfect name, and on that day, we can both be very happy.
[ he can hear it in Doll's voice. but, he knows for some things - action speak louder than words. so... ]
[ the priest-- no... Abel has no intention of leaving this place without ensuring Doll's freedom, first. that's just the way it's going to be. Doll will be free. ]
...I'm sorry. I let things get away from me a bit, didn't I? I never knew when to keep my mouth shut. It's late, and I'd feel terrible keeping you any longer, so...
I'm going to say, 'until next time!' But you can always reach out to me when you need me, okay...? Even if you just need to talk. [ he has a feeling having someone just to sit and listen to Doll is something they haven't had in a long time, if... ever. ]
[ just wait til they talk about Doll together it's going to happen and when their powers combine...... CAPTAAAIN PLANET ]
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[ it's as he suspected....... ok but that was cute!! trying not to laugh ] Anything you want~! Friends talk to each other about lots of things, you know? Hmm...
[ ... ]
If they're having a bad day, a chat might help pick them up... or if something exceptionally great happens and they want to share their excitement! Maybe you have something on your mind and want to talk it through to figure it out. Sometimes you just find yourself talking about anything at all, just to hear their voice or make them laugh, smile... it's a nice deal, right?
I'm sure I'm not the only one here who would love to hear from you, either.
[ he's being trusted with a lot, here, he feels-- and doesn't trust himself not to SCREW IT ALL UP but he will do his best. ]
Well, to answer that... let's see. [ ... ] Your friends are all different people with different backgrounds-- even worlds in the case of everyone here! [ what a rare occasion!! ] So, sometimes you might want to talk to one person about a particular thing because they share your interests. Like cats! ...Or cat-shaped pastries. Maybe someone else gives good advice when you're hurting or feel lost. Maybe someone else makes you laugh... maybe, sometimes, your heart just tells you that you want to speak to them, or even just sit with them in silence, enjoying their company. Those kind of things, they'll come naturally to you... it just takes time.
[ ...he's thinking of Caterina despite himself. she had been so patient with him, and it had taken time, but he learned... if he could do it, he had every faith Doll could. ]
You just have to keep your heart open! I know it's hard, when... I think you've been alone so long. But it will get easier, I promise.
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upcyclingmod) wrote2020-10-01 07:09 pm
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Oh...and Abel please...]
That...I don't think I've been asked that in a very long time.
[And there's...a thoughtful pause.]
I'm...not sure? Sorry for being vague but...I really haven't thought about that in a long time.
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[ the fact no one has asked makes him a little sad for Doll, but he can't say he's surprised. someone who can casually discuss being 'broken' and repaired and is more concerned with the implications it has for others-- and, well... from the forced distance Doll has to keep and the position they're in, it sadly makes sense. owies... his heartstrings... ]
Mm, that's okay. It's a simple question on its face, but when you think about, it can be pretty complicated, right? [ he chuckles softly ] I get that.
But if you were truly happy, I guess... you'd know, wouldn't you? If you have to ask, maybe... you're not there, just yet.
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Do you think you could be? Happy.
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Then again this is also the person who cried over automatic friendship so...]
You don't get asked that question a lot yourself, do you Abel?
[Doll's voice is quiet, sympathetic. They're a couple of lonely people, aren't they. And there's a pause. Doll wants to be truthful, not give the answer he thinks Abel wants.]
I'd like to be. But I'm not sure. I'm...
[Doll sighs.]
I'm not meant to be happy. I'm meant to serve.
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No... please-- don't say that.
You don't really believe that, do you...?
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To serve Abel.
I am my Master's Doll, to be used to please them and the people of the island.
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[ ... ]
Please tell me you know that.
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Sometimes...it's difficult to remember.
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...is this why your name is Doll? [ he'd assumed as much, but this kind of... cements it, huh. ]
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And I'm not allowed to give myself a name.
Though...Naruto calls me Castella.
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If you could, would you keep it? Castella?
Or is there another name you like better?
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It's a pretty name but I've...I'm not sure. It's difficult to think about, if it makes sense?
Like everything gets all bundled up in my head, and I'm unable to think.
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Then, one day... you'll be able to choose a name for yourself. I think-- maybe when that day comes, you'll be a lot closer to being happy, too.
I'm really looking forward to it.
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I'd...like that. Very much so.
If...you'd like to give me a name...for the two of us? I wouldn't mind. At all.
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I could! But...
[ some of the humor has found its way back into his voice. you can almost hear him lifting up his finger in a gesture to 'wait.' ]
When you're free, [ because you will be; he says it like it's a fact ] you'll choose it yourself. I have every faith it'll be the perfect name, and on that day, we can both be very happy.
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But hearing that...Doll gave a shy little nod. And then realized Abel couldn't see it.
Whoops.]
That...I'd like that.
[Not that he thinks he'll ever be free but...the two of them. They can dream, for a little while.]
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[ the priest-- no... Abel has no intention of leaving this place without ensuring Doll's freedom, first. that's just the way it's going to be. Doll will be free. ]
...I'm sorry. I let things get away from me a bit, didn't I? I never knew when to keep my mouth shut. It's late, and I'd feel terrible keeping you any longer, so...
I'm going to say, 'until next time!' But you can always reach out to me when you need me, okay...? Even if you just need to talk. [ he has a feeling having someone just to sit and listen to Doll is something they haven't had in a long time, if... ever. ]
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It's okay. You were well meaning, and it warmed my heart.
[There's a. Confused pause.]
Okay? What would we talk about?
[Yeah he's not. Used to this sort of offer.]
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[ it's as he suspected....... ok but that was cute!! trying not to laugh ] Anything you want~! Friends talk to each other about lots of things, you know? Hmm...
[ ... ]
If they're having a bad day, a chat might help pick them up... or if something exceptionally great happens and they want to share their excitement! Maybe you have something on your mind and want to talk it through to figure it out. Sometimes you just find yourself talking about anything at all, just to hear their voice or make them laugh, smile... it's a nice deal, right?
I'm sure I'm not the only one here who would love to hear from you, either.
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[Baby no stop. You see, this is why there needs to be the power of two skilled b...boys???? Men??? People??? To help Doll out with this.
At least Doll catches on in the end and makes a soft noise.]
That would be nice. I...hmmm. Maybe...there's a few people I'd like to talk to but...I'm not sure who to pick first.
Father Abel, how do you choose who you want to talk to?
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Well, to answer that... let's see. [ ... ] Your friends are all different people with different backgrounds-- even worlds in the case of everyone here! [ what a rare occasion!! ] So, sometimes you might want to talk to one person about a particular thing because they share your interests. Like cats! ...Or cat-shaped pastries. Maybe someone else gives good advice when you're hurting or feel lost. Maybe someone else makes you laugh... maybe, sometimes, your heart just tells you that you want to speak to them, or even just sit with them in silence, enjoying their company. Those kind of things, they'll come naturally to you... it just takes time.
[ ...he's thinking of Caterina despite himself. she had been so patient with him, and it had taken time, but he learned... if he could do it, he had every faith Doll could. ]
You just have to keep your heart open! I know it's hard, when... I think you've been alone so long. But it will get easier, I promise.
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So...I should listen to what my heart tells me?
[That's what it sounds like he's saying but!!! He doesn't want to get it wrong.]
I...okay. I'll try.
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Exactly! Don't put too much pressure on yourself... there's no right or wrong about this sort of thing, okay?
Whatever you do, I-- and all the others who already care about you-- will be with you.
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No right or wrong...okay. All right.
Thank you Father Abel. Truly, thank you.
I...you should get some rest. Maybe you'll find more macarons when you wake up.
[He's def gonna have more macarons.]
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