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Sorry. I wish I had one to show you, but the only thing along those lines that came with me from home was a package of Yakisoba Bread. I have the raw data for manifesting it still logged in the Regalia, but I don't know if that's any use to you.
I'm happy for you. My own 'creator' ...well, it doesn't have a sense of self, and it didn't have a purpose for me to fulfill other than being living, temporary furniture. I was more of an aberrant anomaly that became useful, than a cherished creation. A bug that became a feature, you might say.
Then, we'll have to maketime for you to come over, if that's allowed. I know Flat and the pumpkins would be glad for the company.
Sovereign gear? Do you mean my dress, or is that something different, here?
Thank you, Doll. I have people who love and cherish and value me back home now, luckily, but it's always nice to hear someone say that. ...metaphorically, of course.
I can probably still manifest the dress, but it's not really practical. And I'm not linked up to the Moon Cell either, so it might tire me out... Maybe on a day I don't need Code Casts, I could show you it, and some of the Costumes I made for the Servants.
There might be other ways too. Some people CAN teach magic from their worlds here- that's one of the nice things about this place. People bring their energies here, and make a lot of things possible!
So maybe you could show me, someday. Or I can help make those a reality.
...do you think we have that? I guess...all things considered we might but still.
Well, if they've got magic circuits and a knack for code, I can certainly try. I won't be manifesting any Aggressor Programs unless something big changes, but hopefully I won't need a small army any time soon, anyways.
I'd like that. Let me know what day works for you; my schedule's more open than it has been in ages, these days.
Well, I know for a fact I do, since at the very least my body and soul were based off of a girl without memories but kept in stasis. And... there was another 'Hakuno Kishinami' I went up against. He...
I don't know. He could have been me. I could have been him. If just one little thing was different.
[The presence of a Soul.]
But, it can creep in. Both in big ways or small ways. Like, 'Do I deserve this?' and 'Am I good enough?' and 'Do I belong here?'
Uncertainty is hard to stamp out, but like you said; we have people who care about us. Just for being us. That's the best medicine there is.
There may be someone! Or...if you want me to, I can help? Hopefully you won't have to do any of the Aggressor Programs, knock on wood...because no one wants a small army around.
Most of the time anyway.
It might be next month where I can come around; I've been pretty busy and I need to figure out a way to sneak out without being caught...
Ah. I...think I understand that. That would be...strange to see. To go through. And wonder, if it was something other then chance that gave you that thing you need to be...more.
...
But you're right. People who care for you for you really do...help keep all those doubts at bay.
I... honestly hadn't even thought that was an option. Usually the Moon Cell does most of the heavy lifting, power-wise. An army is a lot to support. I... might be able to, for a few minutes, but...
You need to sneak out? ...should you be making plans on a text network?
Oh! Attack Programs are a little different. more like... puppets or robots, than actual Servants. Maybe if I summoned up a Plant, I could get a regiment or two in play... though again, hopefully I wouldn't need to.
What about manifesting a letter, like you did with the delivery?
Is there a reason you're not supposed to be out and about?
Oh, see? You could do something to keep yourself save! You just have to think outside the box a little!
I mean, I could but it...feels sneaky.
[And Doll doesn't like to sneak around!]
Master just worries for me, mostly. And there's some time alignment too but it's mostly just...worry, since I've been broken before. It was upsetting to them.
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upcyclingmod) wrote2020-10-01 07:09 pm
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It...really is. I know my Master can be rather crude, and has high expectations for me but...I know they love me.
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I'm happy for you. My own 'creator' ...well, it doesn't have a sense of self, and it didn't have a purpose for me to fulfill other than being living, temporary furniture. I was more of an aberrant anomaly that became useful, than a cherished creation. A bug that became a feature, you might say.
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You don't have to summon raw data for me, but thank you. This'll be fun!
That...sounds sad. I'm sorry they couldn't appreciate you. You're worth than as something useful. You're special because you're you.
If that makes sense.
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The Moon Cell doesn't have the capacity to appreciate, unfortunately. But, the fact it made me Sovereign at least means it values me!
It does make sense. Thank you, Doll; you're a sweetheart.
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[BAKING BUDDY!!!! THIS IS THE BEST!!!]
Oh! Thank you Hakuno. I'm sure you'd look lovely in the Soverign gear but!
You're have a lot of value. Really. Not as...something to be used, but as a person.
And I'm not just saying that because of baking.
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Sovereign gear? Do you mean my dress, or is that something different, here?
Thank you, Doll. I have people who love and cherish and value me back home now, luckily, but it's always nice to hear someone say that. ...metaphorically, of course.
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[The pumpkins might get really excited seeing Doll after all!]
I meant your dress! Sorry for the confusion...
But I can understand that. Sometimes...you're not sure if it's true or not.
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They call it 'imposter syndrome' I think.
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So maybe you could show me, someday. Or I can help make those a reality.
...do you think we have that? I guess...all things considered we might but still.
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I'd like that. Let me know what day works for you; my schedule's more open than it has been in ages, these days.
Well, I know for a fact I do, since at the very least my body and soul were based off of a girl without memories but kept in stasis. And... there was another 'Hakuno Kishinami' I went up against. He...
I don't know. He could have been me. I could have been him. If just one little thing was different.
[The presence of a Soul.]
But, it can creep in. Both in big ways or small ways. Like, 'Do I deserve this?' and 'Am I good enough?' and 'Do I belong here?'
Uncertainty is hard to stamp out, but like you said; we have people who care about us. Just for being us. That's the best medicine there is.
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Most of the time anyway.
It might be next month where I can come around; I've been pretty busy and I need to figure out a way to sneak out without being caught...
Ah. I...think I understand that. That would be...strange to see. To go through. And wonder, if it was something other then chance that gave you that thing you need to be...more.
...
But you're right. People who care for you for you really do...help keep all those doubts at bay.
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You need to sneak out? ...should you be making plans on a text network?
Yeah. You get it.
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But depending on the numbers, I could lift it, no problem.
...I shouldn't, but there's no way to really talk about it otherwise right...sigh...
I'll likely be scolded later but it's fine, it's happened before!
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What about manifesting a letter, like you did with the delivery?
Is there a reason you're not supposed to be out and about?
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I mean, I could but it...feels sneaky.
[And Doll doesn't like to sneak around!]
Master just worries for me, mostly. And there's some time alignment too but it's mostly just...worry, since I've been broken before. It was upsetting to them.
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Seeing one of those hurt is worse than anything in the world.
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But...it is. It really...really is.
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I'm sorry that happened to you. Are you okay?